water

it's pretty much my biggest fear, for multiple reasons. not only is it the most overpowering and unpredictable element on the face of the earth, but it's one of the only things i haven't been able to capture in my art. i just got out of the shower, and i find myself thinking about all of this every single time. in all honesty, i spend the majority of my time in there watching each drop of water fall off my fingertips, all in different timing, all in different sizes and shapes, as if it was by their own will.

its so frustrating, it has no definite shape.
there's no exact form for me to go off drawing by memory, but even with all of these reasons to hate it, its the ONLY thing that i find this beautiful.

which is why it kills me. the one thing i can't fully capture is also the one thing i want to capture most.
it's unpredictable.
its like there's no limit to what it can do, or how it can do it.

it can calm or destroy, it can kill while being the very thing that keeps you alive. maybe this is all what makes it interesting though.

in fact, it almost feels better to love without fully understanding
it always means there's something new to learn..