i'll be honest

i've just felt very uninspired, to do almost anything.
to write,
play piano,
sketch,
paint,
everything.

i just spend my time being disgusted with myself.
for multiple reasons.

and i keep clicking "new post" everyday and i just leave the tab open until i leave my computer to go to bed. there's a whole lot of exciting things to say but i can't do justice to any of them in the state that i'm in unfortunately.

i've also been having a lot of issues with my faith lately, which is probably i'm in this place.
i stopped reading as much and i've just become this vegetable in my room that doesn't really want to talk to God or fix anything.
but the last thing i did read was Matthew 14: 22-33
which is ironic.

i just need to get it together.

so i'll come back when i can, which hopefully wont be too long!
all i need to do is stop focusing on other peoples' problems and work on my own.