oh, i forgot to mention

today, we played with lights

pic unrelated

well, kind of. i'm making a comic out of the dream i had last night, the world needs to know.

but you have to admit, it did reel you in a little, didn't it?

anyway, angel's leaving tomorrow, this whole thanksgiving break has been nothing less than an adventure with him. i got to talk about what happened, it turns out his biggest vice is the same as mine. after a huge conversation we had last night (amongst many), i realized we're more alike than we are different.

it was really helpful.

but tomorrow school starts, and everything will be back to normal.

oh, and the service today was about friendships, and what true friends really are,
it opened my eyes to a lot of things i've always known, but never applied to my life.
pretty ill


all in all, thank you God for another day
things are pretty average right now
but something amazing is coming my way


i just know it

man vs. self

you see it's way down at the root of the problem
i don't want to become who i used to be
that's why i freaked out
it doesn't bother me that it happened.



what bothers me is that i don't know if i'd mind if it happened again

today

i realized, we're always looking for the next thing to be displeased with. instead of rejoicing in the fact we wake up every morning, we sulk because we sleep alone. instead of being in awe of what God created, we try and find way to make it better, to make it ours. instead of looking forward to the change, we look back at what we could have changed. i'm guilty of all of this, and it's human nature. but it doesn't mean its right, and it doesn't mean it cant be changed. it's so important to remember that God is so much bigger than us and what we go through.

recently i went through a situation where two people i loved were about to do something i didn't want them to do. i asked them not to, and so badly i wanted it to stop. it ended exactly how i expected it would.

but the thing is, my reasons were so selfish. i was just afraid of the distance that would form between me and the both of them the closer they got, and i put my fears before their happiness.

and the distance is there, it was inevitable. but i realised it was God's way of showing me i'd become too dependent on my friends. i lost sight of Him and forgot how He'd told me i'd never be alone.

but i'm not, so i just need to grab his hand and let him pull me out of this.
He always will.

well

here it is, the final product. part 2 is waiting in the closet, its all my clothes but that can wait a little longer. irrelevant to the latter, my brains been on overload, too much thinking going on. i need some distance from the world for a bit, because in all honest, its only made me as big of a mess as my room was before this.. somethings gotta give

reflect

sometimes its hard to put into words what God's done in my life. but if i had to sum it up into one sentence i'd say, He's turned it into something way more than i could've ever imagined. and it always seems so hard to just shut the world out for a moment and make time for Him, but in the end whatever I get out of that moment, is more than i could get in a lifetime with the world. Fellowship also plays a huge role in my walk, and it's no doubt that I'm blessed with all the great people I've come to know and love. It's crazy to think this is just the beginning.

note

i'm expected to have this all clean within the hour. the fact that i'm taking the time to blog about it pretty much determines the outcome, but i thought i'd use this as a before and after type thing..

well..bye

first order of business will be:

you. i hate you. did you know that? especially you, purple. you suck the most. who do you think you are cracking my tooth? i missed 3 days of tech getting that fixed, and two math classes. and once i fall of the math wagon there's no hopping back on. you know, halloween was only a week ago, and i had to give away all my chewy candy. all. because. of you. cheap shot candy companies of coporate america, cheap shot.