closure

for once in my life, or at least as far as i can remember, i know how i feel

there is no doubt or indecision. there is no hopelessness and there is no anxiety.

there is no wanting more and there is no feeling unwanted.

and most of all there is no desire at the moment to reach for anything but God

there are no distractions; no crushes, no overwhelming temptations, no fear, no angst, no jealousy, no confusion, no sadness.

because right now and for the past couple months God has been telling me to be still and know that HE is God, that HE knows what he's doing

and at long last i decided to listen.

but the greatest thing about it all is there is no insecurity,

because the more i strive to be like him, the more beautiful i feel, because He is.